A Resolution?

I am enjoying a a very quiet (seriously...not even the TV is on!) Sunday afternoon where I'm trying to forget that Monday morning is ever increasingly looming over m. I woke up this morning scouring the Internet browsing a barrage of useless necessities that I fabulously cannot afford.

Oh to be young, fabulous, and broke!

Christmas and New Year have come and gone, and as the holiday facade dwindles I'm just left wanting. I'm sure I'm not the only one feeling this way as millions the country over have had to pull back, push back, and hold back this holiday season. I read last week in the AM New York paper that Shopaholics are having, "the-worst-year-ever". Although they know they're not supposed to spend, they just can't help themselves. Thank God I don't have that problem! I'm probably at the other extreme. I can't bring myself to spend, even though I know I need. So, I have been on every website from Macy's to Forever 21, creating fantasy lists that I know I'll never submit. All in the hopes that I'll someday come back and purchase all of these lost goods that I can very easily live without. Hopefully, like other times, certain items will expire themselves out, thus rendering the problem automatically solved.

Times like these are the the stuff that makes hope possible. If I knew with all certainty that cutting back on expenses wouldn't leave me in any better situation than I am currently, then, by all means...I wouldn't hesitate to spend. Here's hoping that I'm going without so that I can actually contribute to something worthwhile somewhere down the line. When I actually think of it...purchasing an overpriced, cheaply made sweater, that will shrink after one wash is really not a great investment.

On the fourth day of the New Year, I'm hoping to stick to a resolution to invest in myself. I will save my money to do things that will improve my financial situation. I will spend money on the little of pieces of trash that will get me over to times when I can make ends substantially meet. And I will tirelessly do everything in my power to become a better woman for 2010. Sounds good...right?